Well, it's been more than two months now since I have publicly shared my adoptive parenting life via the blog. A number of people have asked why I haven't blogged and wonder if and when I'm going to resume blogging, so here is a bit of an explanation. As things have continued to unwind with two of our sons (currently out of the home due to behavior issues), I have just not had the motivation to blog and open myself up to unsolicited criticism or critique. While I have hoped that my blog would be helpful to other parents facing difficult times with their children, there have been moments when I have not been emotionally resilient enough to take the risk of posting my thoughts in the blogosphere.
I know there are risks inherent with the blogging process, but I do not blog to solicit therapy or unsolicited advice. I am, of course, always interested to hear from other parents who share similar experiences or concerns, or from those whose goal it is to encourage ... but, I have to admit, if it is professional (or even non-professional) responses I seek, I do that in direct ways by consulting those whom I know and trust.
And so I have struggled to know what to do. Do I continue to blog knowing that my emotional state may be further distressed by comments I might receive, even though there are those who have found my thoughts helpful ... or do I discontinue blogging in order to protect myself?
That you are reading today's blog evidences the result of my thought process. I will resume blogging, because I think I have something valuable to offer other adoptive parents and take the risks inherent in this medium because I think my experience is one that is worth sharing ... not necessarily because my experience is unique or exceptional, but precisely because there are other parents in a similar situation who might find my thoughts helpful. Of course my decision is not solely altruistic, because I have found blogging a marvelous way to express my thoughts, and I have received many positive responses along the way.
So, for what it's worth, I am re-entering the world of blogs today.